Sunday, February 7, 2010

Life

I watched the entire fifth season of Grey's Anatomy this weekend. I have a headache from it. At the same time though, I kept watching because I want to work in medicine, and this is my only opportunity to feel close to it. Real life isn't like tv obviously, but I want to work in medicine so much, and I can't. At least not right now, and not for a few years at least. The thing is, I wouldn't have figured out that I wanted to be a midwife if I hadn't gone to Smith. I wanted to be a therapist when I was at Geneseo, and I'm not sure I won't want to do that later, after I've midwifed around for a few years, but I don't want to do that right away. Everything I've experienced has brought me here, and I'm glad. I like it here. My life plan just got more complicated, and I'm a little worried that people will be mad at me, but I am where I am now, and I wouldn't have known how to get here three years ago, or even a year ago, and there's no point in changing horses second semester junior year. I had to come to Smith so I would know I wanted to be a midwife, and row crew, and just be this Caroline in 2010. I don't regret it, and I really think things are going to be ok, but I am sorry if people get mad.

1 comment:

  1. I have a really good friend whose daughter is a very successful midwife. She loves her work. She started in hospital administration first.
    Maybe you should think about an MD or a Nurse Practitioner degree, too. Uncle Fred's son David's wife, Paula is a Nurse Practitioner. She absolutely loves it. She works part time in a clinic for Migrant workers and other hispanics. She started as an her BS in Nursing and her Masters in NP. Also, my neighbor across the street her is an NP. She works for a local practice here and just about everybody here is a patient of hers.

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