Saturday, January 10, 2009
I think I need more direction in my life, I'm always happiest when I'm working at something. I woke up early for me (on a weekend) and went to brunch with Dana, Elizabeth and Nicole and their charming friends. I hadn't been to Panos since it was renovated, and while it isn't as homey as it used to be, I like the new layout. And the food is as good as ever, which is important. It was a nice brunch, I was almost bouncing I was so excited to be with my friends. People are really great, Dana and Elizabeth were telling stories about high school and I was laughing really hard, even though I wasn't there and I don't know the people they were talking about because it was still funny, and I was happy.
After brunch we went to Half and Half and browsed for a bit. I didn't buy anything, but I might go back for some peace sign earrings that I saw. I need more stud earrings, all of mine are huge. They made me think of Justine, from Geneseo Invisible Children, she wears a lot of peace-themed jewelery. Her dorm room is like a monument to peace, it's very cool. I didn't buy them before because I thought they might be a little silly, but I like them, and I think I'll go back for them.
I spent most of the day cleaning and doing jobs, but under my own steam, so it didn't bother me. I finally tidied my room and discovered that I have a floor! Who knew? I should've straightened ages ago, having a clean room is very soothing. I also started sorting through my stuff for Smith. I accidentally took all of my freshman year notebooks back to Geneseo this past fall because I didn't unpack my boxes, and I don't want to do that again.
I made eggplant parmesan, but my parents had already bought trout for dinner, so we're going to have it tomorrow. It looks edible enough though, and I had to do something with the eggplant, it was on its last legs. I sometimes worry that I won't actually ever cook for myself when I live on my own, I'll just live off of mac and cheese and popcorn. I like to cook, but it's such a hassle sometimes. Cooking today was pretty fun though, I put on a bluegrass cd my dad gave me for Christmas and had a nice time of it. I cheated and let my mom make the sauce, but I seasoned it, and I could've made it, I know how.
I'm listening to the Billy Joel song "Lullabye" and feeling sappy. I love this song in a totally un-ironic way, too. It's the sort of song that you could play in the car, driving home late at night, when you've been out having a nice time, and now you're tired, but still happy. Except I feel sort of self-conscious about liking Billy Joel, so I never play this song when anyone else is around. I would though, in that situation. I feel sort of skinless right now, like I'm completely vulnerable because I'm totally safe. It's a good feeling. I'd be totally fine with playing Billy Joel in front of people if I could hold onto this state of mind, I'll work on that.